The Kill Switch
I’ve had the same recurring dream about once a year for as long as I can remember. It’s always the same exactly. Even the colors are the same each time. I’ve had the dream so long that I hardly pay attention to it these days. Then recently, in my adult years (just turned 22), I’ve thought I should find out the meaning of the dream.
In the dream I am a woman and I’m wearing clothing from the 1800’s. I don’t see myself in the dream unless I look down because I am a part of the dream in first person. When I look down, I can see a long yellow dress. It’s dark around me but there is a moon and it’s full and bright. The green of the grass really stands out as I run on it as fast as I can. I am very afraid of what’s coming after me and I’m trying to outrun it. I don’t dare look back. I can’t slow down. I keep trying, in every dream, to outrun what’s coming for me. The darkness that chases me is a man. He’s wearing clothing of the same time period as me. A dark suit with a cape and a tall black hat with a black velvet band around it. He never quite catches up to me in the dream.
I’ve been practicing astral projection for what seems like is forever and finally had a breakthrough if you can call it that. I’m not sure exactly what happened but it seems like an out of body experience to me. I was doing the phasing technique written about so much on this website. I was floating along looking at the black when I felt myself in my dream being chased by that dark presence in the tall black hat. This time it was so different because I knew what was going on. I knew then what the dream I had had as long as I can remember was all about. I know this is going to sound strange but I felt as if I was both the woman running and the man chasing her at one time. I had the whole perspective.
In the dream, the woman was me and the man was the proverbial grim reaper. It seems I built myself a “kill switch”, a way to check out of this physical life early if I decide to. I can let the reaper catch me if I want to. I also learned that the kill switch was something I had decided before I came into this physical life.
After learning through my out of body experience what the dream meant, I don’t think I’ll have the dream any longer. It was the real me trying to get through to the physical me to let me know that I can go home whenever I’m ready. I know absolutely that I have a kill switch but I’m not ready to use it anytime soon.
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Jillian, thank you for sharing your dream and your astral projection to understand your dream. It’s such a unique experience. It was kind of an inner astral projection. I wonder also if many or most of us come into these lives with our own kill switches too.
You’re so welcome Vickie! It looks great with the pictures you used. I have some other interesting things that happened and I’ll post more soon.
Excellent, Jillian! I can’t wait to read and post them. Thank you.
Makes me wonder too about some of the repeater dreams I have had over the years, “Kill Switch” sounds right.
Hi Harris! We probably all have a built-in kill switch so if things go bad we can “check-out”. Dreams have a lot of meaning.
Hi Jillian, I have a cousin in FL I think with Murphy as last name, lost touch with her over the years. Anyhow it’s great to meet you I will enjoy anyones experiences in consciousness and aftermath. I look forward to reading your articles, I have two on here, registered user but I can’t stay logged in for whatever the reason. Have regressed and explored past two lives, not pleasant at all! Plus other things happening in my life, beginning at around 9-10 with OBE’s and flying, had to keep basically to myself in 50’s only told my mother about the paralysis state, she told me to pray about, now I go “out” with no paralysis. Extremely good Lucid, very vivid visions. I just passsed 80 on July 9, I don’t feel my age. My body does to an extent. But I am fine otherwise. I have two dream journals for interatations but most times nothing found to match my dreams. Enough now…lol
That is such a nice welcome! Thank you. I haven’t read your posts yet but I will. It sounds like you have an interesting ability and experiences. I don’t think age really matters. It’s only the body that’s aging really. Thanks for the welcome!