A Day in My Beautiful, Yet Crazy Life
Days like this are not surprising to me. They occur very often and in so many unexpected ways, there’s no way I can catch up with or keep up with myself. I am no longer surprised, but believe me, I am always blown away and grateful.
I’ve had a song looping through my head at random times ever since I first heard it last week. I love the song, but it doesn’t have any lyrical connection to me at all, even if I try to read between the lines. I am always completely silent, so I know this song is more than just an earworm.
Today my dog wanted to walk at a random, unusual time for her. I was happy to go. She’s going on 13, so our walks are slow with a whole lot of sniffing. She is a creature of habit as well. We go one of two ways, and that’s it; no changing things up. Today, she took a completely different route.
I was excited for her to sniff some new bushes. I didn’t realize that she was taking me somewhere for me to have an experience, not her. We passed by three houses with beautiful roses in bloom on this new route.
My heart cracked wide open and filled with love, as the rose is a sign from a loved one who left this world in July. I have heard from him often, and he makes his presence clear now. Roses always abound.
After we finished our walk and slowly made our way to the house, I felt desperate for a meditation. Usually, my meditations are blissful and blackness. Today was not one of those days. I had so many visions coming through me from start to finish and beyond. I knew I couldn’t capture all of it, but I went to my laptop to journal what I could recall.
What came through was the powerful opening message I would use to start my Zoom MeetUp on Thursday night. It was to be something people don’t yet know, yet something they don’t want to know. I continued to journal everything that wanted to come through me.
When I was done reading back what I wrote, I realized this message was not for me to open my Zoom meeting. This message was for someone else entirely.
Recently, I’ve had conversations with a woman I believed was an estate attorney for my friend who died in July. It turned out she wasn’t an attorney but my departed friend’s ex-wife. They were married for thirty years. I could tell she was very hurt and angered by how their life together ended during our conversations. I knew immediately – this message was for her. Here’s what came through:
Feeling this way and knowing you are no longer searching for answers is where you are all headed. We all are headed here, but 99.9999999% of us stop and don’t cross the finish line – we park our spirit for one reason – it is that line in the sand for everyone…
To get here, you have to break hearts and hurt people. That is the one thing that stops people along the path. They don’t want to take prisoners. No casualties; that’s a deal-breaker.
You moving forward following your arrow shakes up everyone and everything in your wake. This means as you follow your path, your people are shaken awakened to get on with their journeys. Everyone has a chance to get on track once you take your leap.
You have to look at it from the perspective of the other realm – from spirit – to move beyond that hurdle that stops your growth. You have to realize you planned everything before you incarnated, with the people who would be in your life. Upsetting your precious and simple apple cart was the next thing you had to burrow through to get to that big, beautiful next step that awaits you. Don’t let it be the thing that keeps you stuck in rinse repeat your life cycle.
Remember that none of this is real. Take that risk. Jump off of that cliff. Do what the guidance says, don’t worry about the people and things you leave behind because they need to move on with their lives. You are all stuck. You will be the hero (maybe not on this side).
I immediately knew it was from him, and he wanted me to get it to her. I always follow through with every morsel of guidance because it is not mine to judge. If one line of a message can help move someone forward, it was well worth it.
After I hit send, I was told that the song stuck in my head for a week was also not for me. Now that the rest had been sent, he wanted me to send it to her. So I did. And then, the third and final message:
To release you and the girls from feelings holding you back, he wants you to let those go. Just know you all agreed on what was to happen in this life. He did his part – which was not easy. For you to all have a beautiful rest-of-your-lives, you need to forgive him, at least inside yourself, and move on, releasing any resentment. You don’t have to forgive him, the man; just how you felt about him, any anger you carry. Let that part of your heart open back up for the world to see you shine. Be the light and love you are; be the example for the girls. They are young, and this can completely change their lives.
And I sent it. I shared it with my friends, as I can’t make this stuff up. One of them responded:
I hope she answers…… it’s like looking in a window to a scene we don’t know
My immediate response was:
I hope she doesn’t answer. It’s just one-directional. I’m just the messenger. She can talk to him whenever she wants to. I have no desire to know what she feels.
I am here to plant the seeds and move on, never to see if they are watered or tended to.
Tomorrow is another day.